My heart is full
Of the aching
Of The unnecessary
Of hatred And war
That knocks at the door
Of those fighting for their land

I cannot imagine
The passion with which
You stand
Hand in hand
As you witness the world divided
Blaming this side or that
For tipping their hat
To the travesty
Of apathy
And the reality
Of the capacity
For people to forget
The greatest threat
To humankind
Is to be blinded
In blame
Its all the same
To proclaim
“I hate this side”
“I hate that side”
The homicide
of human beings
Is the fault of useless strings
Being played
By fingers
Who at their core
Have no fucking right
To have a say in this war.

Bless all who are brave enough to fight. Forgive all who pretend to be.

Much love dear human kind 🙏


The number six
So much with you and I.
Like a butterfly
I intersect
In some way
Like a gateway
I open up
I allow you in
And we spin
The gravity
Of a tapestry
Of Duality

And we pause…
With a cause
Like outlaws
Daring to do
Not one
Like a phenomenon
Of opposites
With confidence
That what is
Felt between us
To anything
And everything
That we are meant to be.


~Letting Go~

And I believed
If you received
The praise
That weighs
So heavily…
On your soul
I could make you whole
If you just believed in “we”

Once I thought I knew
The Ins and outs of you
And of the way the world
According to what was said to me
“This is what you should want to be”
Said he…
And my inner voice whispered “No”
Yet still i ventured
Walking the walk
Talking the talk
No ending
Would ever come to be
Yet feeling
My healing
Was entangled
And mangled
And suddenly…
One day…
I felt strangled
By you.
The dust
Of mistrust
Like a residue
That I always knew
Came over me
And now I see
You are lost
And I am found
On a merry go round
You go
Too afraid to know
That all along
I knew your song
No matter how off key…

I now understand
You are the kind of man
Whose wounds you will not see
And I bless you with light
As you continue the fight
To be what only I can see.


Your antagonistic
Of my catalystic
To understand
How you can
Still fight
Your own light
Now dimly bright
In the night
Your wandering
Is squandering
The severity
Of any clarity
To make you tired


To rebuff
The stuff
That cripples you
And Ripples through
Your sanity
Drowning you in vanity
Your craving
To be

Your souls anxiety
Seeps through
All you do
To those like me
Who truly see
The travesty
Of your irrelevancy
We find some peace
A Universal release
That the light gave up
The darkness too
Loudly Quiet
That is you



Go play
To connect
And see
This BeIsBe
Of we
Said sheS

I followed
The voice
I had no choice
But to make
You know
You had to go

Such conflict AroseYou suppose
Your receipt
Of deceit
Cashed in?Finally?
So timely
The facing of
The embracing of
The tables
Of labels
You never let go Of

In actions
Your Words are
You preach
And reach
Blinded boys
With all of
your noise
They follow
And swallow
Your ego
Like a mosquito
You suck
The light
You fight
To claim
Then blame
The starkness
Of your darkness
As catharsis
Of how addicted
To conflicted
You are
I have the
Of magical
You dont want to take
Because it will make
You go to
a place
To face
The scar
Of who
You are
Who you
Are choosing
To be. ~nj

~Dirt of Your Earth~

~Dirt of Your Earth~

The taste
Of salty sweet
my barefoot feet
My fingers
the raw
Around me
Made wet
From the sweat
That drips down
From the lips
Of the crown
Of the man
Whose blood
Makes this mud…
And I cover my skin
With the yang to my yin
With the dirt of his earth
I feel his rebirth
And I’ve never felt so clean.


And do you believe I honor and understand how you experience?


08:27:30 PM

And do you believe I honor and understand how you experience?

How could you not?

So yes you do?

I’m asking if you believe I honor and understand how you experience, not if I am capable or able or do

I’d like to know if you believe I honor and understand your experience. 

Maybe you don’t. Id like to know how its experienced by you. I think it’s a pretty simple straight forward question? Wont require but a few seconds of your time? 

I am saying that you will recognize all truth, and I believe your voice will be the same voice as all truth and like two Rivers combine the same, your Nolan, the deeper knowing, is the same bacon as my own, and I bring to the table nothing that you do not already know. We all are awakening do something different so just Steve as we awaken we are Diane into ourselves and recognizing that all of our titles and trophies must be turned in, as a new song is about to be song, which is the same tune that has

Been happening already, we are the effect of the cause!!

It’s about recognition not cognition. You are intuitive enough to recognize that same voice. In essence you and I are harmonizing the same notes.

So no. 

I respect your speaking your truth. I have turned down my intuition towards you to allow you to offer what you wish, without my energy influencing or reading for you.

 I’ll honor and respect whatever you bring to that space as your truth. Thank you

Yes or no sooo much less time and effort silly lol

Haaaa we both will know- not know… as we recognize..

I’m not concerned with the energy of how the collective experiences. If that is how you experience if I honor and understand the way you experience, I respect your answer

Your deeper knowing your sub vocal will be your beacon. Combined with your heart and your head knowledge as an aid.

I just would like relief from reading the energy between the lines yet again

I c

I probably crossed a line there. Well fuck. Didnt mean to. It’s ok. I honor how you experience, and if that’s your expression of, I honor that. I’m not concerned about the collective when I ask you questions 

 Use your own voice please

 There are plenty who speak on behalf of the collective. I’m not asking them

 Speak for you.

 Sorry if I pissed you off. 

I just got out of the shower and I’ve read your text, no you have not triggered anything inside me. I do not speak for OTR in behalf of the collective voice as I have entered in my small wave and I’ll flow with the collective, and the collective is the good news, the good word, and it is hallelujah the familiar tune. So they are not my words, they are a new tongue and a new tool as a means of expression.

That’s why I indicate outfront lose my words they are a delivery vehicle to deliver a message, and seek four

The familiar tune and the essence and the manner of its delivery.

So I should have said something like I honor and understand the small wave you’ve entered,  how you experience the flow of the collective, that you experience that as good news and say hallelujah to celebrate how you you recognize the experience of a familiar tune and the words you choose to deliver that message are reflective of your experience of that, do you believe me?

 Glad I didnt piss you off.

 Hopefully that makes what I’m asking more clear. Sorry if it’s a loaded or convoluted question 

I would say you are now spot on, dismissing that I owned them.


 Ok. I didn’t realize I needed to be so specific. I’m sorry. So do you believe I honor and understand your experience if phrased that way?

It follows to a resignation 

It’s ok. I appreciate your responses. I dont want to make what I’m asking any more complicated. I hope you do. My apologies if I did not phrase the intention of my question in a way that would feel comfortable with a yes or no response. I honor and understand that is how you experience, if you believe if I honor and understand your experience. 

You have been reverential to me, and that difference as to what I am not mutates a different perspective than and  the recognizing of such allows the same voice to continue

Honoring His Experience

What you do not realize, is that you are incredibly powerful soul, yet your power does not exist in the way you cling to. You want to be a missionary, yet eyes roll when you spout your word salad nonsense spiritual messages. It’s not that they dont have ears to hear, it’s that you dont have a voice to speak.

You are addicted to power, to applause, to control, and you collect people around you that you think need your resources. Once they are dependent on you in some way, you begin to preach, believing that your message of enlightenment is why these people have come to you. Your word salad nonsense is what they have to put up with, in order to continue to get what they need from you.

That’s why you are an Instagram whore, and why you seek out texting relationships with people, and believe both are validations of your spiritual superiority or equality.

The fact that you are a rich man, allows for the opportunity for you to collect people, and for you to behave as you do with little to no consequence. If you were a poor man? No one would pay any attention to you and your world salad nonsense. They put up with it because you have resources they need, it’s as simple as that.

You dress up in a peter pan costume, because it is the only way other than your money, that people are drawn to you. And you make the assumption that they are drawn to you so you can guide them into awareness. I’m sorry Cory, but they are absolutely not drawn to you because of your preach. They put up with it to get what they need or what you offer them resource wise.

Your gifts are incredibly powerful, but you are trying to be what you are not. There are times you step into your true nature, but most of the time you are trying to recruit lost needy souls who need a spiritual guru hero, and forcing them to listen to word salad spiritual fake ass nonsense. They put up with it because they want something from you, or feel sorry for you. Instagram included.

And whatever spiritual kingdom you are trying to build, will attract those whose energy resonates with you….ie people who are in need of your resources, or people who nod thier heads at a 5 intuitions word salad lecture and tell you how you have such an amazing way with words.

You are so concerned with pointing fingers, that you dont point any fingers at yourself. You are a very angry, lonely, confused, rich man, who hates anyone and anything that does not agree with your presentation of new age enlightenment spirituality.

You both crave and fear attention, affection, and authentic loving relationships. That’s why on one hand, you dress up as peter Pan as a way to draw people to you out of curiosity. Yet on the other hand, you practice a regimen of little to no personal hygiene, so as to have some kind of barrier so no one gets too close.

How sad is that?

Spiritual awakening is not a contest. Spiritual awareness is a honoring how each and every soul experiences. Spiritual awakening requires authenticity, vulnerability, curiosity, humility, and a kind of sacred reverence to the awakening experience. You radiate an energy very different from that.

“I honor how you experience” is an insult you, because “I agree with how you experience (because it is the same way as me) is what you are demanding to hear. I dont agree with how you are experiencing, but I do honor it.

It breaks my heart that you cannot see this. I send you nothing but light and love in your darkness, and I hope you find your way out.

Sincerely I do.

Much love to you always.


~Painting Rocks~

Eyes close
Silent sound
Toes touch
Upon the ground
Breath in…
Breath out…
Parted lips
Wetness drips
Salty sweet fingertips
Drip drops
Paint the rocks
Brought to life
With a karmic knife
And If you’re alive?
I gotta be dead
No shades that color
Inside “this  head.


~Divine Feminine~

Her hips
She slips
And sways

Aware of
The rhythm
And gaze
Of all around
They stare

She’s aware
Of The sound
Of energy
The taste
Of synergy

Inwardly she goes
Outwardly she knows
The definition
Of intuition
The recognition
Of coalition
The inquisition
Of premonition
With precision
Of vision
She finds the flow
Of all who know
And there she
finds her beat

Sweetly swaying
Hear her saying
Come now
I allow
All of you
Join me
And pursue
The feeling
Of dealing
For healing

Peeling gently
She finds entry
Begins her dance
Of this romance
Of you
Of her
Of light
Of dark
Of all connection
And with affection
The pure intention
Of you
Of her
Of light
Of dark
Freely flowing
She honors knowing
Who she was
Who she is
Who she will become
And proudly
She honors
In time
The shine
Of divine
For who you were
Who you are
And who you
will become.